September 3, 2010
So today was simply, AMAZING!! Brianne came to visit me today; we had a blast just enjoying each others company. It was great to see each other and not worry about a time schedule or anything crazy like that. I love the relationship that I have with both Bri and Regan. The things that I can talk to Bri about is amazing, really it is. Some subjects that I would never EVER, bring up with my mom is so easy to talk to Bri and Regan about. This is how a mother daughter relationship should be. That is why I am so thankful for Bri and Regan. I do have someone to talk to about ANYTHING and I feel so comfortable doing so. So if either of you are reading this…THANK YOU!!! It means so much that words can’t express.
It really is amazing to me how, ungrateful “America” has become. I say it as “America” because there are people that go through struggles that realize what life is really about. And by struggles, I’m not talking not having a job, but in my opinion, it is REAL crazy shit. Me, for example, I was in prison. I missed a lot in the 20 months that I was locked up. I missed Christmas, birthday parties, and even sitting at a park watching kids play, dogs barking. A lot of the little things that no one even realizes until it is gone. I talk to a few friends, some older than I, and I realize how much more wisdom I have. MORAL: BE THANKFUL FOR EVERYTHING!
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Friday, September 3, 2010
I am BACK...
September 2, 2010
So today I went and volunteered at a Thrift Store. It wasn’t too bad. I got 5 solid hours of community service. 75 more to go! Alright!!!:) I was supposed to go meet with my counselor but well she kinda blew me off. Hmm…its not the first time that I have been blown off…shows that you cant really depend on anyone. I can only depend on myself and even then I let myself down. Life is weird. There are so many temptations. More than I remember. I have had the urge to get a high feeling. I miss it, it has been over three years and now that I am free it has been so much more tempting. I even thought about having a disgusting cigarette. These are just my thoughts, a way to get things out instead of holding things in. Im really not going to allow myself to do any of these things that would just be suicide.:) Well tomorrow brianne is coming down to chill with me and I am uber excited. Anyway, I should go now, I have a drug test that is calling my name! JOY! J
Affirmations
1. I love myself just the way I am.
2. I am a patient person
3. I am open minded.
Thanks:
1. I am thankful for new opportunities.
2. I am thankful for new friends.I am thankful to be alive.
September 1, 2010
So I haven’t been on in while…but I m back…my life is super crazy right now. Things are slowly calming down. Now recently I have heard that my mom is trying to get in contact with me. So weird because, we do not have a great relationship, and for the past 20 months, we have not been on the best of terms…now that I am out of prison it seems that she is trying really hard to get in contact with me. It is really weird! I don’t understand and it is so confusing to me. She even went as far as contacting my parole officer. And I personally think that is really none of her business to go that far. I almost feel like I am being stalked or something. Why can’t everyone just have a normal life??
Anyway, I am still looking for a job, hopefully one is to come soon!
Affirmations:
1. I am a positive person.
2. I am making the best of my situation.
3. I am a beautiful person.
Thanks:
1. I am thankful to be alive.
2. I am thankful for a new beginning.
3. I am thankful for great friends.
So today I went and volunteered at a Thrift Store. It wasn’t too bad. I got 5 solid hours of community service. 75 more to go! Alright!!!:) I was supposed to go meet with my counselor but well she kinda blew me off. Hmm…its not the first time that I have been blown off…shows that you cant really depend on anyone. I can only depend on myself and even then I let myself down. Life is weird. There are so many temptations. More than I remember. I have had the urge to get a high feeling. I miss it, it has been over three years and now that I am free it has been so much more tempting. I even thought about having a disgusting cigarette. These are just my thoughts, a way to get things out instead of holding things in. Im really not going to allow myself to do any of these things that would just be suicide.:) Well tomorrow brianne is coming down to chill with me and I am uber excited. Anyway, I should go now, I have a drug test that is calling my name! JOY! J
Affirmations
1. I love myself just the way I am.
2. I am a patient person
3. I am open minded.
Thanks:
1. I am thankful for new opportunities.
2. I am thankful for new friends.I am thankful to be alive.
September 1, 2010
So I haven’t been on in while…but I m back…my life is super crazy right now. Things are slowly calming down. Now recently I have heard that my mom is trying to get in contact with me. So weird because, we do not have a great relationship, and for the past 20 months, we have not been on the best of terms…now that I am out of prison it seems that she is trying really hard to get in contact with me. It is really weird! I don’t understand and it is so confusing to me. She even went as far as contacting my parole officer. And I personally think that is really none of her business to go that far. I almost feel like I am being stalked or something. Why can’t everyone just have a normal life??
Anyway, I am still looking for a job, hopefully one is to come soon!
Affirmations:
1. I am a positive person.
2. I am making the best of my situation.
3. I am a beautiful person.
Thanks:
1. I am thankful to be alive.
2. I am thankful for a new beginning.
3. I am thankful for great friends.