i love kaci!

so i was going through my music on itunes today. and I'm still not feeling the best...I'm okay.


anyway...i came across Hannah Montana. and the only reason i have her on my music is cause kaci wanted me to put her on her ipod( well regans i pod, but kaci kinda took over) my music was on shuffle and it came to this song, "Life's What you Make it" and out of all seriousness, it has a really good message to it.


and its all because of my little kaci rose! i love you so much! thank you kaci and Hannah! lol
My Little RockStar!




Don't let no small frustration Ever bring you down No no no no Just take a situation And turn it all around With a new attitude everything can change Make it how you want it to be Stayin' mad, why do that? Give yourself a break Laugh about it and you'll see Life's what you make it So let's make it rock Life's what you make it so come on come on (everybody now) Why be sad, broken hearted? Theres so much to do Yeah yeah yeah yeah Life is hard or It's a party The choice is up to you With a new attitude everything can change Make it how you want it to be Stayin' sad, why do that? Give yourself a break I know you wanna party with me Life's what you make it So let's make it rock Life's what you make it So come on come on Lets celebrate it Join in everyone You decide 'Cause life's...what you make it Things are looking up Any time you want All you gotta do is realize that It's under your control So let the good times rock and roll Ow!Da da da do it now Aaaaaaaaaaaaaah OW! Alright Yeah yeah yeah Yeah yeah Life's what you make it So let's make it rock Life's what you make it So come on come on (everybody now) Let's celebrate it Join in everyone You decide'Cause life's...what you make it Life is what you make it!!!!

not too bad for hannah montanna!

ready to leave

okay so some days are okay with me....some are extremely crappy!
today is a crappy one.
one where i just wanna cry and cry.
one where i honestly want my mom to hold me and tell me that it is going to be okay.
(never going to happen)
i don't know why i have these type of days at random.
its all so confusing! when i come from a place where i practically didn't have any rules to a place where i have every rule on the planet! and i have to write something out saying that i wanna go see my BEST friend?!? insane!
its sOOOOOO stinkin hard!!!
and knowing that in December I'm going to be locked up (i am now openly admitting it, its the truth and i cant deny it any longer) all i want to do is spend time with my family or what i have left of it and my friends. i love them so much and i don't want people to hold me back from that.
i need help.
should i go...i don't like it here...
D said i can move in with her. this place may be holding me back.
I'm adult! shouldn't i be able to make a choice? just now is the most confusing time in my life right now. i hate the city. i love the mountains.
i hate being pushed into all this GOD crap...
I'm use to not having a mom...but always wanted one.
I'm trying to be my own mom.
I'm going to try to get a job for a couple of months...and really enjoy my time!!!
I'm not a druggie! like all the people here are so i just don't know! the people in here are way older than me and sometimes can be mean.
I'm feeling o so lonely! like it is so hard to explain! i have so many friends here, and i love them all, but there is just something missing and i cant explain it. I'm not comfortable here.i cant explain it, its not familiar, there are too many clicks and i hate clicks!
it is so weird to live in a place with a bunch of other girls and its not even like roommates its way different! i don't like it. i started out liking it now not so much...idk what to do.


Regan...can you call me tonight?
Brianne...if your in a good place can you call me?
someone..i just wanna cry to!

Sunday

Six Flags...

Okay so Diana and i still went to six flags..
first ride mind eraser. second ride Boomerang.
Boomerang broke down while we were on it! so Scary!!!
bomerang is the one that you go forward and then backwards. well everything was fine till we were about to go backwards and the coaster didnt catch on the chain or something and we started rolling backwards. diana and i were in the last cart...very last seats!!! so we were pratically upsidedown.. hanging there!!! not okay! for like 30 mins!!! finally we started to move very carefully!!!! and they started to unload us. and getting out i was so freaked out. there was like a foot gap that you had to get over to even get off the coaster. once we were off they gave us a ticket to get to the front of any line. so that was basically it. and we were on the very next roller coaster that we saw!! lol!!
it was fun though!
after that im still not done with roller coasters and i love it!

This weekend...

Was GRRRREAT!!!

I can actually say that I am feeling pretty satified with my life right now! AMAZING!

So Friday night i was just excited because the next morning we were going to six flags! But i helped crystal put music onto her ipod. and then we walked t 7-11 for slurpees! yumm!

Saturday- slept in, that was nice! jenny came over and we waited for my aunt to come pick us up for brakfast. we had a yummy breakfast then we were off to six flags!! and this is really exciting because my aunt had never been to six falgs before so i was so excited!! so we got there and it still wasnt open. we had to wait like 30 mins. which was fine whatever! so we got in and my aunt was down for the rollercoasters and everything. so i was determined to bring her on the biggest and fastest rollercoasters in the park!........................................................dun dun dunnnnnnnn....
first, mind eracer that was fine, or she seemed fine to me anyway..next was the boomerang...that is when she told us she needs to sit out. she was looking pail...poor thing i felt so bad...jenny had to leave after a few more rides and so kim and i went to get a drink...she just couldnt do it and had to leave she droped me off and waited for dina to get off school so we could go back, we got there at like 4 and the first ride we did was mind eracer again...lol...but we are 18 we can handle it...
we waited in the line for an hour!!!i know crazy!!!!we staied until 11. it was avery good day!!!

sunday my bestfriend called and told me that her and tim are coming down.. and i get to see them i am so excited...we have more free tickets so we are going to go to six flags again!!! and the haunted house at six flags!!!

im happy with my weekend!!!!