Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Guest Post by Brianne

So, yesterday was a terrible day for all of us who love Nikki. She was arrested and is currently being held at Clear Creek County Jail. PLEASE visit her if you have the chance.

DIRECTIONS

The jail is located in Georgetown, Colorado at 405 Argentine Street. Traveling on I-70, you take the 228 exit for Georgetown. If traveling westbound you turn left and if traveling eastbound you turn right. Go to Argentine Street and turn right, stay on Argentine Street till you come to a “T” intersection. Make a left turn on 6th Street and then a right at the first intersection which is the continuation of Argentine Street.

The Sheriff’s Office is the large white building on the corner, which will be on your right. Turn into the first parking lot and walk up the stairs to the double doors. If after hours or on the weekend you will need to use the intercom on the right side of the doors to alert the jail that you are there. Please be patient as it may take several minutes for a deputy to respond to let you in.

VISITATION

Visitation of inmates may be scheduled 6 days a week (Tuesday through Sunday). The hours will be 8:00 a.m. till 11:00 a.m. and 1:00 p.m. till 4:00 p.m. Each visit will only be for 30 minutes.

Each inmate will be allowed two visits per week (Tuesday through Sunday).

The Sheriff Office utilizes video visitation. Visitors will use a video phone in the Sheriff’s Office Lobby and the inmate will use a video phone from the jail. These visits will be recorded and may be monitored during the visit.

Visitors who register with the Sheriff’s Office will be able to set up their appointment time to visit, from any computer with internet access, or by calling the Jail at 303-679-2395. Visitor’s who show up to visit at the Sheriff’s Office and have not set up an appointment time, may have to wait until a time becomes available. Request visitation using this link.

If for some reason visitation has to be cancelled, any visitors who have pre-registered will be notified by phone to the number they supplied that the visit has been cancelled, hopefully saving visitors from driving to the facility.

Two adults will be able to sit comfortably in the visitation booth in the lobby. More than two may visit at once, however please keep in mind that the visit will only be 30 minutes and more than two or three people will severely limit the amount of time that each visitor will have to speak with the inmate.

All adult visitors (over 18 years of age) must have a government issued identification card showing their photograph.

Visitors must be appropriately dressed. Shirts and shoes are required. No form-fitting, suggestive or revealing clothing will be permitted. Persons inappropriately dressed will not be allowed to visit. If an inmate or visitor displays inappropriate behavior, or becomes a threat to the safety of the facility, the visit will be terminated immediately and they may lose their right to future visitation.

PHONE CALLS

Inmates are given one initial phone call that is free. This is to attempt to bond or notify someone that they are in custody. Phone calls after this are either a collect call to the party or on a phone card that the inmate can purchase through the jail. The name of the phone provider is Securis. The billing portion is handled by Correctional Billing Services. Their customer service number is 1-800-844-6591. Their web page is www.CorrectionalBillingServices.com
Phone calls are limited to 15 minutes. You should hear a warning tone 30 seconds before it is terminated. This limit is placed so that all inmates have equal access to use of the phones.
The use of the phones is considered a privilege and can be taken away from the inmates for improper use or other violations within the jail.

Phone numbers can be blocked by the detentions staff. If you are receiving unwanted phone calls please call the jail at 303-679-2395 and ask that your number be blocked.

Monday, December 1, 2008

my game!

I think it's funny when someone I know well emails a questionnaire like this. But I answered most of it anyway and emailed her back. Thought I'd post it here just for fun. Feel free to answer the Q's on your own blog. (Let me know so I can come read!)

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? Yes, Nicolette Sherridan, she was on a soap opra when my mom was pregnate with me!
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Yesterday, i have been crying a lot!
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? yea...what kind of question is that?
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Roast Beef
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? If I was weirded out by strange, erratic behavior, probably not. If I was really insecure around people who speak their minds, probably not. if i didnt like to laugh...probably not!
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? What does "a lot" mean? Every day? Every hour? Everything you say?
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? yes, and i hope i keep them!
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? Yes!
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? captin crunch...except it hurts the roof of my mouth...
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM Off? No, what's the point? You untie them, you tie them back up, you untie them, you tie them back up. I can slip on every shoe I own without messing with the laces. And yes, I stomp on the back of my shoes too.
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? i am strong...maybe not physically...but i have dont a lot that most people might not be able to do on their own.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? Ben And Jerries Cherry Garcia
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? Honestly their outfits.
15. RED OR PINK? red
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? my sister
18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU? No. Because that would take far too long to read.
19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? Baby blue sweat pants...and socks..
20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Reces pices
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?Atmosphere Happymess
22. IF YOU WHERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? um i would be a changing one..that changes with my emotions that day...today i would be green.its my fav color and im feeling pretty happy
23. FAVORITE SMELLS? freshly cut grass
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Kaci Rose!
25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? Gosh, I don't know...I'll have to think about that. ;) Of course I like the person who sent this to me! What kind of silly questions IS this?
26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? football basketball, snowboarding, snowmobilling, all winter sports!
27. what happened to 27?!?
28. EYE COLOR?Brown
29. Do you wear contacts? no
30. FAVORITE FOOD? mashed potatoes, sushi, pasta, FOOD!
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? Happy endings but when ever i am with dena we always rent or watch scary movies!
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Praticall MAgic
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU Wearing? Black
34. SUMMER OR WINTER? WINTER!!!!
35. HUGS OR KISSES? yuck. who needs affection? grooooossssss.
36. FAVORITE DESSERT? anything chocolate
37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? don't know, maybe brianne
.38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Regan! lol, she probably wouldnt know how to respond!
.39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? None
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? No mouse pad...laptop..
41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON T.V. LAST NIGHT? i watched the broncos lose!
42. FAVORITE SOUND? peacefull snow falling
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?they are not my music generation...but ill sayt the rolling stones cause they have a cool logo!
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?Right now...im trying to figure out my home!
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? all my talents are "special". ;)
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? California, i didnt chose to be born there!
47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK? Briannes.
48. WHAT TIME IS IT NOW? 9:08

Sunday, November 30, 2008

update....

well i am feeling pretty happy! because of all of the snow!!!

right now i am at kims house and it even snowed down here! i am so stoked! i love the snow!

i hate that the days seem to pass by so fast!!

i really dont know what else to say! i have so many mixed emotions! happy all the way to depressed!

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

today...

was fun! im glad i got out and enjoyed it! it was a beauitful sunny day!
Lena, Stephanie, Lindsay, Crystal, Kenidra and I went to Taco Bell for lunch! it was a real treat! it was a lot of fun! on the way (i rode with stephanie) and we listened to techno, very loud! and that really is fun, and dancing in the car!


anyway after lunch, i went with stephanie to get her oil changed, it was at a walmart, so while we waited, we walked around walmart and tried clothes on, and maskes and took pictures! it was sooo much fun! here are only some of the pictures! i had such a good time! thank you stephanie/dryer!
This looks really scary...but its just a mask.but i also think its sweet!
I was the drama face!
On the way home!
Biggest Gum ball machine i have ever seen!
Along with the biggest stocking that i have seen!
Wating in the car
These glasses are so sweet! i love them! they are guitars! i am a rockstar!
Christmas here already?
When we went to taco bell, we go kids meals!
this is for lena, the bronco fanitac!!!!!!
Hats!!!!
Bows!
Glasses!
Stephanie went to the bathroom and when she came out i was dressed like this!
Christmas reef!

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Happy Birthday........


Please accept my apologies.

I wonder what you would of been...
would you of been a little angel?
or an angel of sin?
a tom girl running with the boys and playin' sports?
or a cute girl with beautiful brown eyes and playin with dolls?
you never even got a chance to open your eyes...
would you of been a little genius, and loved math?
would you of played in your school clothes and made me mad?
would you of learned to snowboard to like your mom?
i wonder about your skin tone...the shape of your nose...
how would you of sounded to laugh? or talked fast or slow...


i think about it every day even more so today,
happy birthday, whoever you would of been. Happy Birthday.


what i thought was a dream was as real as it seems! I made a mistake!


Who's to say it wouldn't of worked? who's to say it would have?


I was young and struggling but old enough to be a mom.
The fear of being a mom is still here.
From the heavens to the womb to the heavens again...ending to the ending never got to begin...
maybe one day we could meet face to face in the place with out time and space.

Im sorry and happy birthday to whoever you would of became!

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

NO MORE

CRUTCHES!!!
YEA!
im so happy! still have a brace but that is okay!

i am happy and excited to see my kaci rose! i sure do love her! i have so much love for that girl it brings tears to my eyes right now just thinking about her! i dont want to miss much more of her life! i want to be there for her! always! be her big sister!she never has to go through what i went through!
i love you!

the game

7 Things I Say More Often:
1. ouch! my knee hurts!
2. when will this be over, i dont wanna face this
3. im hungry
4. why? (why in general)
5. I need a vacation. (agree with brianne)
6. when is it going to snow?
7. i hate the city
7 Things I Did Before: (before what?)
1. didnt have a life
2. had knee surgery
3.still have dena
4. cry
5. Snowboarded everyday
6. been alone
7. went to the best concert ever!
7 Things I Do Now:
1. Blog
2. Cry
3. therapy
4. Love my friends and family
5. try to live life "normal"
6. Dream of "FREEDOM"
7. im dena!
7 Things I Want to Do:
1. Be free
2. live where i want!
3. Live in the mountains
4. Turn time back
5. Maybe never be born or have this life.
6. snowboard
7 Things That Attract me About the Opposite Sex:
1 Respectful
2. Thoughtful
3. Funny
4. Caring
5. Loves dogs
6. Loves Kids
7. Does housework
7 Favorite Foods: 1. Enchiladas
2. Pasta
3. Most everything my gram makes
4. mac and cheese
5. pickles
6. rice cakes
7. kettle corn in bed with kaci

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Finally....

I have some pictures from halloween!
here they are.....
Before.....


Add a Little Paint....

Paint makes you crazy....

Paint in Style.....

But dont eat it!!!

Coffee Before a long night...

And the Finished Product!....

Lindsay and Chris...

Kylie, diana and me!

The morning after....

Me Lacie, and stephanie

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Happy Birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR KIM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

I LOVE YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Good Morning...

Kim, Brianne, Regan, Kaci,

Today i back at the house and im not thrilled about it. it is really hard to be alone. I dont like it.

Last night, there was a fundraiser Banquot that my dad, gram, and kim all went to. the n i had to come back here. it was really hard to come back here.

I really miss you Brianne. its crazy how much i miss you! i love you and thank you!

i miss you too miss Kacface! do your homework!! i love you!!

Update…Surgery, Recovery and everything else

Well Wednesday I finally had my knee surgery!! After almost 1 whole year…I tore my ACL December 9 2007 and its almost December 9 2008…anyway I did this whole thing basically myself as far as getting my own insurance…this is the first time that I have had insurance on myself in my entire life.! Crazy! And calling the doctor…getting a second MRI...and going to all the doctors’ appointments...i did that all myself! No mommy, daddy to help me! I did it!
As far as I know the surgery went well…but I was knocked out the whole time…all I know is that after surgery was tough for me…it took me 5 hours to wake up from the Anastasia…and every time I woke up I was throwing up and I had a real crappy nurse…but whatever…
The next two days were tough a lot of pain and little sleep. But I got a lot of phone calls. And Saturday Kim came over and visited me and got me out of the house and away from grandma…grandma is good and all and I love her but everyone needs a break…oh ya and my dad is here too…im happy about that..
Sunday we went to church and that night I got to spend some time with my dad….he got me out of the house we went to Ross…he was going to buy me a new winter coat because they were on sale there…but we both ended up getting hoodies instead and he said that he would take me to a different Ross tomorrow...then we went to a restaurant and talked...it was good…he has good stuff to say….that he still loves me and that he will always be there for me...and that I shouldn’t feel bad for the way that my mom is acting…he thinks it is wrong too…then we made a promise that we will be a “TEAM” now on…and Ill call him more that sort of stuff…it was good
So Monday, dad took us out to breakfast, then to Ross and target it was fun…got home later then dad and I ditched gma and went to dinner for a couple hours…talked more…o ya and today between getting home from shopping and dinner the phone rang so I answered…he is exactly how it went….
ME: hello,
VOICE ON THE PHONE: Hi,
ME: Who is this?
VOICE ON THE PHONE: NIKKI?!?
ME: Yea?
VOICE ON THE PHONE: GIVE THE PHONE TO GRANDMA

It was my sister…and the tone in her voice when she said my name made me feel real shitty….no nothing didn’t even want to acknowledge that it was me! Lame…loser I hate it.
Well today my dad took me to a coffee shop so I could get out of the house and I could check my emails and stuff while he is working next door for a little while…so send me an email…I miss all of you guys!
Love you!!!
Always!!!!!

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

I Voted!!!!!

Yes it is finally the time in my life that i am able to make a decision with my country! i really did it! i really voted! and i even studied so i knew and was very knowledgable about everything i was voting on! i feel so powerfull now! so sweet!! cant wait to see what will be the out comes and if what and who i voted for will turn out to be what i wanted. its very exciting!

Sunday, November 2, 2008

I did Something....CRAZY!!!!

I dyed my hair Blonde!!! Just kidding....but SERIOUSELY i did...only the bottom layer of my hair...it looks really good...but it shouldnt suprise anyone because i am that person to do the crazy things that no one else wold do...but ya it looks not too bad i like it!!! yay!!! here are some pictures...more later!!!! Before......



After.....
(i dont have these pictures yet)

Halloween...(and updates)

Was so much fun!i was a washer machine and my friend Stephnie was the dryer. i hope to get some pictures on here soon! we had so much fun though! i got a lot of candy!! yummm...

Saturday, there was a suprise party for jessica, and i went to that. it was fun. jessica was very suprised! we at food. yumm and had a bowling tournament on the wii! i won in our group of four and then in the championship i got 3rd. not bad!it was a fun party if i say so myself!


Now for other updates....


My wisdome teeth are growing in and i hurt o so bad! ouch!! i dont like wisdome teeth. i hope i dont need them pulled.. all i know is how stinkin bad they hurt!

My doctor called and moved my surgery up to Nov 5. This Wednesday. thats cool! i guess. i was on a list to get my surgery moved up. so closer to get it over with. so last year December 9 is the day i hurt my knee...its been pratically 1 whole year since i hurt my knee and im finally getting it fixed. that is lame! im not ever going to let that happen! if i get hurt again, will fix myself right away. not put it off like my mom did to me.


I cant wait to see my gram and dad!


Oh and i took kylie(dianas daughter) on her first penny pony ride! so much fun!

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

i love kaci!

so i was going through my music on itunes today. and I'm still not feeling the best...I'm okay.


anyway...i came across Hannah Montana. and the only reason i have her on my music is cause kaci wanted me to put her on her ipod( well regans i pod, but kaci kinda took over) my music was on shuffle and it came to this song, "Life's What you Make it" and out of all seriousness, it has a really good message to it.


and its all because of my little kaci rose! i love you so much! thank you kaci and Hannah! lol
My Little RockStar!




Don't let no small frustration Ever bring you down No no no no Just take a situation And turn it all around With a new attitude everything can change Make it how you want it to be Stayin' mad, why do that? Give yourself a break Laugh about it and you'll see Life's what you make it So let's make it rock Life's what you make it so come on come on (everybody now) Why be sad, broken hearted? Theres so much to do Yeah yeah yeah yeah Life is hard or It's a party The choice is up to you With a new attitude everything can change Make it how you want it to be Stayin' sad, why do that? Give yourself a break I know you wanna party with me Life's what you make it So let's make it rock Life's what you make it So come on come on Lets celebrate it Join in everyone You decide 'Cause life's...what you make it Things are looking up Any time you want All you gotta do is realize that It's under your control So let the good times rock and roll Ow!Da da da do it now Aaaaaaaaaaaaaah OW! Alright Yeah yeah yeah Yeah yeah Life's what you make it So let's make it rock Life's what you make it So come on come on (everybody now) Let's celebrate it Join in everyone You decide'Cause life's...what you make it Life is what you make it!!!!

not too bad for hannah montanna!

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

ready to leave

okay so some days are okay with me....some are extremely crappy!
today is a crappy one.
one where i just wanna cry and cry.
one where i honestly want my mom to hold me and tell me that it is going to be okay.
(never going to happen)
i don't know why i have these type of days at random.
its all so confusing! when i come from a place where i practically didn't have any rules to a place where i have every rule on the planet! and i have to write something out saying that i wanna go see my BEST friend?!? insane!
its sOOOOOO stinkin hard!!!
and knowing that in December I'm going to be locked up (i am now openly admitting it, its the truth and i cant deny it any longer) all i want to do is spend time with my family or what i have left of it and my friends. i love them so much and i don't want people to hold me back from that.
i need help.
should i go...i don't like it here...
D said i can move in with her. this place may be holding me back.
I'm adult! shouldn't i be able to make a choice? just now is the most confusing time in my life right now. i hate the city. i love the mountains.
i hate being pushed into all this GOD crap...
I'm use to not having a mom...but always wanted one.
I'm trying to be my own mom.
I'm going to try to get a job for a couple of months...and really enjoy my time!!!
I'm not a druggie! like all the people here are so i just don't know! the people in here are way older than me and sometimes can be mean.
I'm feeling o so lonely! like it is so hard to explain! i have so many friends here, and i love them all, but there is just something missing and i cant explain it. I'm not comfortable here.i cant explain it, its not familiar, there are too many clicks and i hate clicks!
it is so weird to live in a place with a bunch of other girls and its not even like roommates its way different! i don't like it. i started out liking it now not so much...idk what to do.


Regan...can you call me tonight?
Brianne...if your in a good place can you call me?
someone..i just wanna cry to!

Sunday

Six Flags...

Okay so Diana and i still went to six flags..
first ride mind eraser. second ride Boomerang.
Boomerang broke down while we were on it! so Scary!!!
bomerang is the one that you go forward and then backwards. well everything was fine till we were about to go backwards and the coaster didnt catch on the chain or something and we started rolling backwards. diana and i were in the last cart...very last seats!!! so we were pratically upsidedown.. hanging there!!! not okay! for like 30 mins!!! finally we started to move very carefully!!!! and they started to unload us. and getting out i was so freaked out. there was like a foot gap that you had to get over to even get off the coaster. once we were off they gave us a ticket to get to the front of any line. so that was basically it. and we were on the very next roller coaster that we saw!! lol!!
it was fun though!
after that im still not done with roller coasters and i love it!

Sunday, October 26, 2008

This weekend...

Was GRRRREAT!!!

I can actually say that I am feeling pretty satified with my life right now! AMAZING!

So Friday night i was just excited because the next morning we were going to six flags! But i helped crystal put music onto her ipod. and then we walked t 7-11 for slurpees! yumm!

Saturday- slept in, that was nice! jenny came over and we waited for my aunt to come pick us up for brakfast. we had a yummy breakfast then we were off to six flags!! and this is really exciting because my aunt had never been to six falgs before so i was so excited!! so we got there and it still wasnt open. we had to wait like 30 mins. which was fine whatever! so we got in and my aunt was down for the rollercoasters and everything. so i was determined to bring her on the biggest and fastest rollercoasters in the park!........................................................dun dun dunnnnnnnn....
first, mind eracer that was fine, or she seemed fine to me anyway..next was the boomerang...that is when she told us she needs to sit out. she was looking pail...poor thing i felt so bad...jenny had to leave after a few more rides and so kim and i went to get a drink...she just couldnt do it and had to leave she droped me off and waited for dina to get off school so we could go back, we got there at like 4 and the first ride we did was mind eracer again...lol...but we are 18 we can handle it...
we waited in the line for an hour!!!i know crazy!!!!we staied until 11. it was avery good day!!!

sunday my bestfriend called and told me that her and tim are coming down.. and i get to see them i am so excited...we have more free tickets so we are going to go to six flags again!!! and the haunted house at six flags!!!

im happy with my weekend!!!!

Friday, October 24, 2008

this is dedicated to dena, kaci, stryder, brianne

well this song helps me describe how i feel about these people in my life...the whole song is dedicated to dena and these certian parts are for brianne, kaci, and stryder....

A.n.g.e.l A.n.g.e.l Just like a shadow I'll be beside you I'll be your comfort And let it guide you home I will provide you a place of shelter If I could be your angel Your angel, Your angel Protect you from the pain I'll keep you safe from danger You'll never hurt again I'll be your a.n.g.e.l I'm gona be your a.n.g.e.l I'll be your angel Just like the moon I'll step beside and let your sun shine
While I follow behind If I could be your angel Your angel, Your angel Protect you from the painI
'll keep you safe from danger You'll never hurt again I'll be your a.n.g.e.l I'm gona be your a.n.g.e.l I'll be your angel



basically the entire song is to dena, cause its kinda a love song! so this whole thing is for you dena marie!...





A.n.g.e.l A.n.g.e.l Just like a shadow I'll be beside you I'll be your comfort And let it guide you home I will provide you a place of shelter I want a be your zone Tell me what to do Tell me what you wanted me to do I'll make you great to be a man With a woman who can stand Who will never promise to leave her man Making vows to please her man If I could be your angel Your angel, Your angel Protect you from the pain I'll keep you safe from danger You'll never hurt again I'll be your a.n.g.e.l I'm gona be your a.n.g.e.l I'll be your angel Just like the moon I'll step beside And let your sun shine While I follow behind Cause baby what ya got It is with all the props With everything I'm not Tell me what to do Tell me what you wanted me to do I'll make you great to be a man With a woman who can stand Who will never promise to leave her man
Making vows to please her man If I could be your angel Your angel, Your angel Protect you from the pain I'll keep you safe from danger You'll never hurt again I'll be your a.n.g.e.l I'm gona be your a.n.g.e.l I'll be your angel Tell me why there's so many good men And the world's misunderstood He's a dog, he's no good I wish somebody would Disrespect my man You're gona have to come see me I go hard for my baby He's all that I need If you got a good one Put your hands up, Come on girl and stand up Go ahead lift your man up Get up If you got a good one, put your hands up Go ahead lift your man up Get up If you got a good one, stand up Come on girl, and stand up If I could be your angel Your angel, Your angel Protect you from the pain
I'll keep you safe from danger You'll never hurt again I'll be your a.n.g.e.l I'm gona be your a.n.g.e.l I'll be your A.n.g.e.l A.n.g.e.l Just like a shadow I'll be beside youI'll be your comfort
And let it guide you home I will provide you a place of shelter I want a be your zone Tell me what to do Tell me what you wanted me to do I'll make you great to be a man With a woman who can stand Who will never promise to leave her man Making vows to please her man If I could be your angel Your angel, Your angel Protect you from the pain I'll keep you safe from danger You'll never hurt againI'll be your a.n.g.e.l I'm gona be your a.n.g.e.l I'll be your angel
Just like the moonI'll step beside And let your sun shine While I follow behind Cause baby what ya got It is with all the props With everything I'm not Tell me what to do Tell me what you wanted me to do I'll make you great to be a man With a woman who can stand Who will never promise to leave her man paking vows to please her man If I could be your angel Your angel, Your angel Protect you from the pain I'll keep you safe from danger You'll never hurt again
I'll be your a.n.g.e.l I'm gona be your a.n.g.e.l I'll be your angel Tell me why there's so many good men And the world's misunderstood He's a dog, he's no goodI wish somebody would
disrespect my man You're gona have to come see me I go hard for my baby He's all that I need
So if you got a good one Put your hands up, Come on girl and stand upG o ahead lift your man up
Get up If you got a good one, put your hands up Go ahead lift your man up Get up If you got a good one, stand up Come on girl, and stand up If I could be your angel Your angel, Your angel
Protect you from the pain I'll keep you safe from danger You'll never hurt again I'll be your a.n.g.e.l I'm gona be your a.n.g.e.l I'll be your angel

please remember how much i love and appreciate all of you!!!

Thursday, October 23, 2008

today a good day...

so today i woke up not wanting to do anything really. i was in my pj pretty much most of the day. just doing laundry, cleaning and that sort of stuff. but then lena came over and told me that she just got off the pone with regan. and she told me that regan said that my next court date isnt untill DECEMBER 8!!!! i am so very happy!!! that means that much more time to spend with my "family" ( and i quoted family because friends are the family that you chose!) so i have such a big "family" now! i absolutly love it!!! that gives me halloween, and thanksgiving! i cried when i heard! that is how thankful that i am! i dont know if anyone know how thankful i am! o ya nad i get to get my knee surgery! i am so happy! and thank you regan for helping me get the doctors note and faxing it! how can anyone live without a REGAN?!?!?!?

and i also been talking to my dena and her and tim have worked things out. they arent together, but they worked things out! and i am o so happy for that! my two best friends are back now and idont have to pick sides anymore. but with out a doubt i would of chosen dena if i had to sorry tim. but dont worry any more i still have you!! love you guys!

and this weekend, well saturday i am going to six flags along with some friends to see haunted houses, and ride roller coasters!
the friends: Kim, Rachel, Jenny, Diana, Karen, and Lindsay! O ya it should be fun...
things are kinda looking up!

okay.. i just remembered i need to call my counslor when i found out, so i gotta go call her! i love brianne, regan, kim, dena and o so many more! thank you guys!

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Being a best Friend can be fun.....and HARD!!! Dang!






well...my best friend, called me last night...HYSTERICAL!!! poor thing just broke up with her boyfriend! its weird cause i just got use to the fact that they are a couple and never perpared myself for if they ever broke up. because in my mind that just didnt exist!!! they were together,



period!! He is my best friend as much as she is mine! im just not undertanding...but im just being a good friend! well trying! i want to be there more! hug her! but i cant and im sitting at the other end of the phone line speechless...i need to think of something to say...but im blank so all i say is thata i love her!!! what else do i say...i hope everything is okay with them!! im always in the middle of their fights. and i dont mind but this one was big!! i love you dena, i love you tim! you guys are still my best friends..and im sorry that i am not good at advice! :(( but i hope and think i helped a little! love!!!
fix this broken hear guys...istill need my best friends in my life!!! both of you not just one! i am getting torn also!!!

Friday, October 17, 2008

I have the Bestest Friend In the world!!!










My Best friends' name is DENA MARIE PERRY!!! she is so awesome! she makes me laugh..she makes me cry!...she punches me...she hugs me!! man did i luck out in finding the best friend in the world..


no but out of a seriousness...she really is a great friend! i love her and i love spending time with her. i cant wait to get an appartment together! i cant wait for this door in my life to be closed and i can really have my best friend back!!!i love you dena marie! you are the bestest!!!

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

is it all coming to an end?!?!

okay it bassically seems like EVERYTHING is coming to an end or something i can hardly explaine it! im confused, scared! i dont even know what to feel.
court coming up, my knee giving out twice in one day, my friend who is very dear to me going through the same thing and i feel nervous to see her, i feel guilty,
it doesnt even seem like that much but it truly is! for me!
i just want to be a "normal" teenager. i know that "normal" is like not even possiable to accomplish but most teenagers do not go through what i go through! i want to be able to go to the movies with my best friend when i want, go where i want, and if i want a boyfriend, i should be able to have one! it doesnt seem fair! im in a christian home and it makes me want to question if there is a god.

im confused, how could i carry for nine months (that is the first time that i have actually said something close to that) and my friend who was capable and perfectly willing couldnt. i am lost. im scared that she might be mad at me. i hope she is not. i hope she is okay.
i kinda want it all to end....

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Sunday...



Okay so today i didnt realize how busy that i was until i just got home and had a minute to actually sit down




So it all started at 7 am. where i got up and got ready for the day. 830 i had to go to church. i didnt even go to church, well i was there but there was no one in the nursery to watch the kids so i went there with my great friend lacie and watched the kids.

10 my aunt kim picked me up and we were off to find a breakfast place. i told her how much i hate the city so we left and went looking for somewhere to eat outside the city. eventually coming upon IHOP (international house of pancakes) lol. we talked (about things that i dont like to talk about) but o well i have to. but i still dont like it.

so we talked about going to the movies and shopping at target(i absolutly love target!!!) but anyway we were driving to the theater and we passed the butterfly pavalion and started to talk about it and how i never been there. next thing i knew we were makin a legal u-turn and we were going to the butterfly pavilion. but that place was way cool though. there were like three different sections. like insects(spiders, cockroaches) there were trianchulas, oh no, i am not okay with those furry things! lol. but my kim was brave enough to hold one! and the trianchula had a name!!! ROSIE!!! but i could not bring myself to hold ROSIE!!! but props to her! the next section was like fishys! im okay with them, they swim. and in the fishy section you could touch a starfish. that was cool. one felt hard like a rock and another felt like soft, not really slimy just soft. and the last section was the butterflies. soo many very beauitful butterflies. we even saw the new butterflies that were just being released and we learned some cool facts about them.

after that we went to get some coffee...pumkin coffee...i dont recmond it. then i got droped off...by this time it was like 3.
so now it is time to watch the bronco game...i watched the game with my friend diana. she doesnt know much about football or sports in general so i was kinda explaining what was happening. but lacie and i dressed up for the game. and dianna even dressed her 5 month old baby up we had a lot of fun...even if the broncos lost!!! but it is okay! we still love them! next weekend

there was like 7 minutes left of the game and i had to go to youth group with lacie.

so lacie and i went to youth group, ate dinner, then we went to her house and watched a slide show of pictures and stuff of a friend who just got back from africa.

and i just walked in the door and it is almost 1030. wow!! im exausted!!!



GOODNIGHT!!!